august log

august is a particularly interesting month to me.

01/08/2025

slow day. friday. had a shower, practised my chinese, tidied up the flat a bit, took a photo for my id card for work on Monday - pictures of your own face always the weirdest thing. then slopped about for most of the rest of the day. went to L&B's and played bananagrams. things were revealed. B made us some nice fajitas. spicy. very juicy. I had a nice time but I was in a poor humour because I don't feel well. the walk back with O was nice, though I became churlish and upset. then spent the evening looking at neocities.

02/08/2025

even slower day. granola, chinese, cleaning up. just so tired and under the weather. ate half a bag of the special crisps but they tasted off and then I've felt sick all afternoon so that may have been a mistake. turns out they are a year out of date. watched the end of community s3 with O. I have to agree with him that the season is at its strongest when it's doing its "meat and potatoes" rather than when it's doing its big set pieces. crazy how much of it is entirely ingrained in me down to the delivery. I've been exploring neocities. i love fisheatingsite. i got too ensnared in fish clicker though and one of the other games gave me horrible motion sickness. really need to do some more work on the corpus and my diss but I've been unmotivated? or anxious? probably the latter makes more sense. signed up for postcrossing.

03/08/2025

went for a longish walk (for me). 3 miles ought not be that long but really it is. oh well I will just have to walk more. maybe I'll walk to and from my new job. I've been pretty consistent with the chinese speaking practice but I really need to get my fitness up for the trip. looked at lots of different shoes but refused to try any on. hateful activity. went out for a nice dinner with O. cocktail and prawn tempura ramen and salad. it said vegetables on the menu so we asked what vegetables and the waitress was like. a mix? which only confused us more and then she had to go talk to the chef and she came back and was like.. there's some rocket? and leaves? and we realised that we had been bamboozled by the word vegetables. we also realised that the salad was the one we often get from lidl. one of my only successful ventures into the world of broth. washed my hair, packed all my stuff up for the first day of work, and...terrible insomnia, could not sleep til about 5 am.

04/08/2025

long long day. miserably woke up at 7ish for work. absolutely dead by 5. but work itself was good! well. typical first day it issues, trying to log into things via 5 different portals til you can find one that works, inputting nine trillion one time codes, signing up to platforms you'd never have heard of in your wildest dreams. 2 hour sprint meeting was very interesting, I'm feeling good about my choice to work here. though I really need to up my technical skills. though I also really need to stop getting so ahead of myself. it is day one of the job. perhaps it is fine if I focus on the tasks I was hired to do first. perhaps... the server was right by my desk and it's SO LOUD. I felt like I was on an airfield. they showed me where the coffin pods were. definitely need to get a mouse for work. the laptop trackpad is so tiny. now all that is left is to plot my pdf destruction.